The Cripple..........

I picked up the gun that was lying deep in the drawer,
checking, whether time has rusted it from the inside.
I know that emptying its contents won't give me an answer,
but at least it will make me presentable to the world outside.




I have been fighting a lost cause ever since the day I was born.
Every passing year seems to pierce me just like a rose's thorn.
I never vented out my emotions to the people who matter,
in the fear that I will become a joke, and my sentiments scattered.




Time has passed by and its numerous tests have made me numb,
and I am afraid that when the real test comes, I will fail to recognize it like a dumb.
I have almost forgotten that I am the only one who is capable of winning this battle.
In this world we are all controlled by an invisible force, just like the way we control our cattle.




You never came to my rescue, when you knew that I needed to be dazzled.
You watched me struggle through every stage of this crossword puzzle.
I am the one who will have to live my life through this misery,
slowly slowly, I am losing power in my battery.



I ask the one above, why you made me a cripple for no fault of mine ?
Am I paying for the sins committed once upon a time ?
Is there any cure for this torture that I have been suffering since nine ?
At least give me a taste of your sweetest wine.



I hope to wake up from this nightmare which I hope is just an extended session,
Why do we all hope that everything bad is just a dream from which we might wake up anytime.
Making the best of all we have got should be our only life's mission.
otherwise there will be no satisfaction for us, at least not in this lifetime.